Dear reader,
If your logging in for the first time.. there is a few things you should know. First of all. I am a big girl. I don't mean big girl like, I can tie my shoes, and pick out my own clothes... I mean BIG girl. I guess I didn't realize how big. I mean I have been the same size FOR-EVER! I have struggled with my self esteem, come on... what chick doesn't? But I have never really felt bad about my size or my .. rolls. Unless I started comparing myself to all my skinny friends. Who are probably that way, because I ate all their food!
I've been through a lot, and through over coming it. I learned to like myself for something other than my looks... like my stubbornness and perseverance. :)I can also be very charming, and my husband thinks I'm the bees knees. So to be honest, that may have gone to my head. He treats me like such a queen, then I think I didn't know any better.
So let me just get you up to date. 5 days ago, I stood on a scale and weighed in at a charming 256.4 lbs. Cue shock and horror. Before that I had spent almost 3 weeks feeling less than awesome. Tired all the time, irritated and annoyed for no reason, I realized there was something very wrong. Now, cut me some slack... I didn't get there all by myself. I had 4 precocious little angels to add 15lbs to my frame every time my husband gave me that "come hither" look. Unfortunately, as we learn in school... 15 x 4 = 80. Add in a lifestyle of not eating right, and an addiction to chocolate, and we have a recipe for ..well, ME.
Anyway, I knew something needed to change so I decided to join a gym. There's an awesome one, that gives me just what I need for $10 a month, plus a lot of my friends go there. So its a good place. I was so excited to go to the gym (no idea where that came from, I have never been one to excercise) that I ended up going back every day since. So 5 days into the journey I have lost 3lbs. Cue applause.
So reader, this is where you come in. You get to laugh with me, cry with me, and watch my progress. I know... it's exciting isn't it? ( Did I mention I'm a bit of a comedian?) Also, I have a confession to make. I'm making cupcakes for my daughter's birthday party tomorrow. I ate one. Without frosting.... but still. Yes, it was worth it. I have been very good all week. I deserve it. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you don't deserve chocolate. Every woman deserves chocolate. I don't care if your 80lbs or 380lbs. Chocolate is good for us! It gives us happy boosters.:) Its like unhealthy prozac.
My friend did tell me that broccoli has the same thing as chocolate, that same happy booster thing.... I wanted to smack her.
Anyway, thanks for joining me on this journey.... I promise you'll want to read whats to come. It gets juicier! :)
-A.Esqueda
