So I decided, New Year... New Me.... blah blah blah..... you know the hype. With that, I thought it would be good to start writing in my blogs again. After all, I have to give myself a reason to live.
Checking this post, I realized I had written in here since April 2013! When I first started this so called journey. Talk about short lived!! HA!
I got very discouraged last time because I was working out about an hour a day every day, for 5 days.... and in a two month time frame I only lost 8 lbs.... total life change, and I only get to lose 8lbs for it??? Really??
I know... i know... that's good... that's healthy....but for my weight size to only lose 8lbs ... well... it doesn't really make a difference. You Can't see it, and I can't see it.
However, now I am back in the land of the skinny and healthy and my overbearing size is becoming more ominous by the day... with health critics everywhere, and everyone dieting... It's hard not to look at myself and realize that I would take that 8lbs if I could get it... and I need to. I need to get it. Healthy. Controlled. Sugar Free. Whatever 'It' is.
So, I am starting again... I don't know if I will do the hour a day thing at the gym, but I will work out, and I will resolve to eating less, and healthier.... even if it means I feel like I am starving for the first year!!
I know.... a year is a bit dramatic... But the past few days I made a drastic change in diet and not only have I felt non-stop hungry, but I have also had a stomach ache, been nauseaus.... etc... all good things I am told when you are detoxing and eating better, I just wonder how long it's going to last.
Not only that, but it seems my whole life the girl I have seen in the mirror has been a disappointment. I know the eating thing is linked to something deeper, but I just wonder if the day is ever going to come, and I am going to like the blue eyed girls staring back at me. Because as of right now... she could never do enough to make me happy.
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